I Wish

I wish I was....

Smarter

Thinner

More compelling

Wiser

Beautiful

Better at talking to people

A better date

Enough

Less scarred

Helping more 

More loving

A lot more patient

Worth it

Sure

A better writer

More accomplished

Less afraid

Bolder

More graceful

Just....MORE

I wish I was more.

B.

You're Only Allowed One *Allergy

And I didn't get that memo. Next time you go to a restaurant try to order something that's gluten free and dairy free. It makes life interesting- like a little game.

Ok. So many things have happened since I last blogged.  For one, after a looooooot of research and experimenting, I am now.......drumroll please....a **vegan! Yup. One of those. So now add vegan to that list of gluten free and dairy free.  For a person who really hates to be a bother, I am extra fun to go out to dinner with. But it's all worth it because I feel amaaaaaazing.  Low fat, high carb, lots of veggies and fruit. As much raw as possible.  I pretty much already ate the veg and the fruit but I avoided all other carbs ( rice, potatoes, pasta...ect) and did the high protein/super low carb thing before. And felt AWFUL.  As a woman with PCOS I had no idea that this other world was a thing or an option! It's amazing.  I pretty much now eat how I always want to but didn't know I could. I don't eat as many calories as they recommend yet, but I'm working on it.  That's a whole mind game I'm trying to overcome. Right now my only real vice is salt.  Having a really hard time cutting that down.


Something that hasn't changed since I last blogged? God is good. And faithful.  We are all so very blessed.

So go tell someone how amazing they are and then get yourself a smoothie.  You'll feel great, I promise.


B.

*technically 'sensitivity' but hellooooo anything that makes me double over with pain/throw up/feel absolutely awful and take a significant amount of time to recover from is a BIG deal.  And people are more respectful of the word 'allergy' then 'sensitivity'.  

**check out the 801010 diet or the banana girl diet to know more. We'll see where this journey takes me.

You're Important

You're important.  Somebody said that to me yesterday.  We were talking, laughing, and just getting to know each other when Somebody decided I reminded her of her nanny growing up.  Blonde, creative, funny. This nanny had a big impact on her life.  Then she said: You're important.

I often have a hard time feeling self worth of any kind. I look in the mirror and to me I look disfigured. I haven't graduated college, I live at home. I'm not married, no kids.  I have a cat. Whoohoo.  Everything I do I'm pretty average at.  Average singing voice, average photography skills, average jeans size. How the heck am I important?!  I forget sometimes that I'm where I'm supposed to be.  That it's what you choose to do with the skills you have that makes all the difference. That my Saviour knows me, my thoughts, and my heart and sent Somebody to remind that I'm important.

Sunday FunDay

My inner 6 year old loves carnivals, fairs, and theme parks waaaaay too much.  Today was a delight. Met up with some adopted family and took a former student with us.  Got a bit sunburned but not too badly.

Feet Painting and Cookie Making

Yesterday I got to watch a couple of my favorite kiddos, Simon (3) and Cora (1).  We made a yummy smoothie, baked oatmeal cookies and got crazy with some paint.  Fun day.

I painted Simon's feet and we made a foot print painting and then I put some paint down on some paper and ( while I held him so he didn't slip and fall) he painted a picture with his feet!

Then, Simon decided he wanted to paint MY feet.  Ummmm, here's my hand dude :)

I may or may not have put this hand on his face afterward.....haha.

I seriously LOVE that I get to encourage and teach kids about art and creativity and that we should be excited to explore our world.  God is good!

Good Friday

Today is Good Friday and while I spent most of the day being/feeling sick, I still made it to a Good Friday service at one of the 3 churches I'm currently attending (long story).  All day today I've been feeling upset and a little angry because of how horrible my PCOS makes me feel and going tonight reminded me of my Saviour's love for us and that yes, I might be feeling bad today, but it's OK.  God is with me.  He loves us SO MUCH, that He gave His life for us. Crazy.  The bigness of it - I can't even understand.

He was pierced for our transgressions

He was crushed for our iniquities

The punishment that brought us peace was upon Him

And by His wounds we are healed.

Isaiah 53:5

  

First Post

So I'm going to start off this new blog by telling you that nothing happened today.  Well, not really. I watched my friend R.E. 's kiddos, took a nice walk in the So Cal sunshine, and made cookies.  That's about it. (What a let down, right?) So I'll tell you a bit about myself.

I just turned 26 (St Pattie's day!), I have PCOS, I live with my crazy family, only very recently joined the world and got an iPhone, love taking photos even though I'm not that good at it, and I quit my job of 4 years a few months ago.  Why the heck would I quit my job? For a few reasons:

1. My mom is disabled and she had surgery to reconstruct her reconstructed foot a couple of months ago.  We needed someone to stay home and take of her.

2. I haven't finished school. I'll touch on this more later.

3.  I have a chronic illness and working full time and school was just not happening.  I was getting sick all the time.

4. I'm pretty nice.  I tend to think the best of people and I try really hard to be patient, loving, and respectful.  A couple of people I worked with were severely stressing me out and it was making me ill.

5.  God was telling me it was time.  I loved where I worked and even with the issues at the end- I miss it.

So now I take care of my mother and I watch other peoples children.  I don't think that I'm super talented at a lot of things but when it comes to kids, I know how to do that.  I'm super blessed to be able to be in this place in life right now. On that note, here's some song lyrics by Matt Redman that have been in my head today:
 The sun comes up
It's a new day dawningIt's time to sing Your song againWhatever may pass and whatever lies before meLet me be singing when the evening comesBless the Lord O my soulO my soulWorship His holy nameSing like never beforeO my soul
Blessings!

B.

P.S.

It's also Maundy Thursday today!